memories of 911


Janet Dickelman
 

The following was sent out by Florida Council of the Blind written by member Anthony Corona.

 

Janet

911 20 years

by Anthony Corona

 

They stood as symbols for our country; two tall and impressive 110-storied buildings at the lower foot of Manhattan. They could be seen for miles from land or approaching by sea. They held thousands of people daily, conducting business around the globe. The Twin Towers were shining examples of American engineering and business. Ironically, they formed an impressive eleven in the city skyline.

 

9/11: the day is forever etched into the fabric of history; Lives were tragically lost, Heroes were born, and the safety illusion of America was forever erased. 20 years ago I still had sight and I rode the Staten Island Ferry daily, watching those impressive towers growing larger over the 30 minutes it takes the ferry to cross NY Harbor.

 

20 Years ago I had a burgeoning career working in Downtown Manhattan. I would ride the ferry every morning, many times preferring to stand out front in the wind of the crossing boat with headphones on, revving myself up for another work day.

 

20  Years ago today time stood still and for the first time in over 100 years of service the ferry stopped mid run and sat in the harbor in horror as hundreds of people aboard stared in shock at one tower rocked from the impact of an airplane. Flames erupted and the smoke furled up and out into the surrounding areas and then…. Screams ripped through the eerie silence as those hundreds of people watched a second plane… aim…. Hit.

 

20 years ago today I stood among the passengers on the Staten Island Ferry, tears silently streaming down my face. The boat sat still for over 20 minutes until an announcement that we would be returning to Staten Island. The engines re-started just as the next layer of horror occurred; the first tower seemed to tremble and sink into itself. The sound was deafening, the smell was smoke and gas and some horrible metallic that actually reminded me of the smell of BLOOD.

 

20 Years ago I thought I was a man, I thought I knew everything. I couldn’t fathom what my eyes were showing me. I broke in many small ways and before I knew it, I was sobbing like the little boy I was in that moment.

 

20 Years ago 4 people I loved never made it home. My cousin a FDNY  member, My best friend’s father who worked on the 68th floor, My very good friend who worked on the 47th floor, and a former manager I worked with when I was in college; all gone in those terrible moments. There wasn’t a single person I knew at the time who couldn’t say the same things.

 

20 Years later I can still hear the roar, smell that horrific stench and, although I lost my sight a few years ago, I still see that second plane. I can still see the first tower fall. I can still hear the screams and sobs.

 

I can never forget. We can never forget.

Every generation has life-altering, changing, and foundation-rocking moments. As the world battles a pandemic, the likes not seen for over 100 years it strikes me these foundation-rocking moments bound us in humanity. These moments remind us of all we have to lose together and sometimes all the greatness we can achieve together. 20 years ago our world was rocked to the core and I was changed from my core. Together we recovered as we will from this dark pandemic; but one of the strongest lessons I relive every day for the last 20 years is that together we can do anything, together we are stronger, together we are family; if only we remember and continue to hold proverbial hands.